forgiveness

“Creation is the single greatest moment of forgiveness in any man's life. As it was in God's.”
That's a quote from Jesus, from some text which the Official Church deemed as heretic. Who among us can say what's politically correct? May he without any bias throw the first stone.
I've been wondering if Forgiveness can be so simply attained. More so, I've been pondering, “What did God do that required forgiveness? What triggered The Beginning? What Wrong begat The Word?”
I may be totally wrong, but I believe I've felt God's pain for most of my life--- Loneliness.
Even within the small confines of my two pound heart, I know that my love is infinite. In my life, there is infinite longing to Share.
What is light without reflection? Does the sun really exist without the earth? Can there be starlight without the night?
Some say that the story of Job is older than Genesis. It makes sense to me. Every babe knows that it didn't do anything wrong to be this hungry. So they cry out. It's not until much later that they have the awareness to ask, where did I come from? How did it all begin?
They say in the Beginning that God walked with Adam, that they shot the breeze together. Still the flesh was lonely. So God understanding Adam's pain forgave him by creating woman, knowing all the while that He, Himself would become the Gooseberry, the third wheel.
There are many arguments about Original Sin. There are many arguments about the meaning of the original words. I don't really care anything about that. Beauty lays in the eye of the beholder. Therein rides the crest of the double edged sword. Judgment. Before The Two ate of the Tree of Knowledge, they hadn't made the judgment call that they were inferior to God, they had been the best of buds. Not a care in the World. Not a stitch of fig leaves.
I lay awake at night, alone, in my crowded bed of judgments. Some people are too fat, some are too beautiful, others too self-absorbed, I am too poor, too mentally & bodily feeble for infinite love to be divine. I toss and turn under the covers of Madison Avenue, Fear driven government control.
I long for forgiveness. I long to create a story that will make everyone feel okay about their own Godliness. God didn't give anything to Jonah that he didn't already have.

Today, I cut my hair, cut my fingernails, brushed my teeth, and showered. Forgiving my descent into mortality.